cant get to grips on how to create these blogs,i apologise for some blogs that are empty but anyway i know whoever comes across them will work their own way around them xxxx
i was thinking of the right way to edit my loveletter without cutting off the feelings went through me while writing it,so i decided to put it exactly how i sent it...
nothing is lost nothing is gained but the mere fact of publising it here is the feeling of being free to wite and feel my exact feelings without contradiction re the matter...by immersing myself to this world for a moment...
it is however a response to a previous message received from sd...
so here it was,my loveletter to the man with the big blue eyes....
hello darling...i received your message last night and thank you for being considerate as always and how vividly you remember everything...it was
torture reading all of that knowing i am too far away....from you xxxx
i thought about what you sent me and my answer is,yes...xxx
but i cant say how or when unless you tell me,,, i cant ask you for too much i know and like i said i am happy with what you are happy to give me xxx
wether in bed,in words,in anything infact...whatever you feel i deserve to have from you i will not contradict it,,,
i am happy with things and i hope you are too thats all the matters and i know if there will be issues or problems that maybe coming in the midst of this
lovely affair we have one of us will say something xxxx although, i know there will be words that will remain unsaid...
what i have shared with you i have not shared with anyone else,you are right they were in my mind but i never acted on them...there was no one to share them with
and i was afraid if i did the other person will get the wrong message about me....
with you,i felt .... free? unhibited,,but the most important thing is i felt safe.the time we've spent together however short they were i never felt...threatened in anyway..
first time was nerve wracking,the second around was comfortable,,,well i am human same as you and there are things i felt that wont be said but these things i said now
are meant and a confession from me xxxx
thank you for all your assurances and kindness inspite of all the situations we are both in xxxxxxxxxxxx
i am lucky to have you in my life,and yes when i touch myself i get wet and think of you when we make love,when you take me hungrily like we wont have it anymore..
when you hold my hand while you push yourself inside of me,the way you touch me,when you are inside me tenderly feeling me until we cant hold it anymore xxxx
your assuring kisses and the way you looked at me before we left for dinner xxxx that look i cant take off my mind,telling me after dinner you cant wait to take me to bed...
you can tie me up,fuck me anyway you want,yes be rough with me if you feel the need what ever it is that will satisfy you i am happy to give xxxxx
all these is yours,
...xxxx your sugarbaby
